http://fallacyofepiphany.blogspot.com/2010/11/glucklich.html
this post but it certainly, is it?
Well, funny, everything happened very quickly ...
This "everything he says seriously," I was tied to the fact that he not only says that he wants a future with me, no - he wanted to do well like that. Does My Skepticism was gone.
So, the beginning now shifts indefinitely.
What was so sure before, now is nothing more.
There is someone besides me think of something so serious? Well ... maybe not.
We are far more similar than we thought, which unfortunately leads to difficulties of extraordinary proportions:
He gladly does his due - I would abhaben part of it.
He does not like to think - I'm really sensitive to that matter.
And I can deal with much worse weekend than I had expected.
The only thing that saved me was the thought that soon, very soon, would be over.
In my head I had the apartment established. Introduced to me as I come home and he's there. Had considered whether I should not end up with after a few months, because the proposed apartment there were delivered. Because then I would have enough time to save for the move. I might have to pay the rent, which is still pending. Just the things that have kept me from moving NOW. As I walked
am being driven, have made me think how to organize everything. How much energy and overcome, I put in there. For us. For me. For him.
In my head everything was ready. I had often enough demand whether it is safe.
I need security. Much security. My life was
uncertain enough. I do not want that!
Now all the questions in my head:
Will he always have so much fear?
What happens if I am one day before him and tell him I'm pregnant? Will he be gone, because there is too much? Too fast?
If he can really enter into the obligation of a wedding?
Or will he perhaps can only after 20 years?
I can not afford a long distance relationship in the long run. And even if he says different: He can not.
€ 120 each month by 2, is not it. Very easy math.
And if you drive less, then I can not bear bad.
I will my money is not even without the rides. I need a job. But when I want to do then?
All the things of which I had at the beginning of fear. Had not he said so fast that he moved to Berlin, then maybe I would not at all kept up to date.
And now that he, for fear that he is alone, no longer wishes, all the fears are back.
say what fears? I've always said that I can not.
we "wanted to try."
Did not work out of the test? Can fail
love of money and time?
Make our fears everything broken?
And the most important question I ask myself:
Do I need it?
... I know nothing ...
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