I think I should leave it to love watching movies.
But still I do it again but then only to be disappointed that it just with me and also for far too long is not so.
I just saw the new movie with Sandra Bullock.
The fact that I look at movies with Sandra Bullock would see to that for excitement.
But I think the too great and the old woman still envy (especially because of the really really dainty types with which they play there ...) let me yet so slowly but surely appear in a very strange light.
I wish that the one side so much.
I long for physical intimacy. And I'm certainly not sex.
No, I want to be in his arms and know that I'm right here at home.
I want when allowed to look into the eyes and notice that he loves me unconditionally.
I want to kiss someone and fall can be completely myself.
I want to love.
On the other hand, I have to offer, unfortunately, nothing. I am calm, but in the wrong moments, far too loud.
I am shy, but in the wrong moments, I give far too much price.
I'm nice, but I'm the wrong moments, I just shit.
I do not have many interests, but in the wrong moments, I can spend hours telling trivial things.
And I feel really never good.
Some men find that although I look good, but I would sign but only rarely.
So, how am I going to ever have a relationship as I want?
I'm jealous!
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I think I should better stop watching love movies.
But I do it again and again just to be dissapointed at the end, cause my life is not like that much too long.
I just watched the new movie with Sandra Bullock.
The single fact that I watched a movie with Sandra Bullock shall put the cat among the pidgeons.
But that I really liked him and that I envy the dame for her luck ( eminently because of the really cute guy she acts with... )should appear in a weird light.
On one side I am so wanting the same.
I am longing for physical closeness. Not Sex as well!
No, I want to be hugged and just know that here is my home.
I want to look in somebodys eyes and just want to know that he is loving me unconditonal.
I want to kiss somebody and let myself fall.
I want love.
On the other hand I have nothing to give.
I am silent, but in the wrong moment I am much too loud.
I am shy, but in the wrong moment I am telling too much.
I am nice, but in the wrong moment I am just crappy.
I have not lots of interests, but in the wrong moment I can talk for hours about
dummy things.
I nearly never feel good.
Some guys are thinking that I am good looking but I won't sign that often.
The point is : How should I ever have a relationship I would like to have?
I am jealous!
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