Lonely Good day revered, invisible, probably not available, audience. So, let's start at the now-moment quality:
I'm lying / sitting in bed, trying to get up a smoke, well and that's about it even with the daily planning.
it's boring.
I've just holidays. A few months ago I decided to have my education in the class to break is below average, intelligent and to strive for higher.
I do now ... (Dramatic pause) ... School diploma!
So far, so good. And it would probably be really good, it would not start with an internship in the kindergarten.
5 or 6 weeks, I have now, before the start of the holiday, worked in a kindergarten.
I've certainly some of you ever told about the suffering of the whole:
yes I like children. Real. But FIFTEEN make it eight hours a day driving me nuts! Kita is really not for me.
I can not talk with the children as I would like it (can not say no, "Kevin if you Sabine hit again then I plugged up with your head in the sand "- and then make too) and with the parents not
So, now I have to really smoke a go first
you soon
So, to resume.. life has really developed well Kita großteilig is shit..
the moment I am mostly alone.
My dearest best friend has a lady "fished" and lives well for 2 months or so with her. Means to me: no best friend anymore. He is just gone.
My friend, I once counted on the way (the Iranian freedom fighter-hairdresser) has also roped and since then I've heard nothing more of it.
The only intelligent woman I've met in training for baking Strunz has little time.
And my "oldest" friend .. yes, I'm the meantime had really nasty in the wool.
The story about it (in the short format):
I had a English waiter in the summer holidays to know. All
funny and stuff. No ambitions to more than fun (sex while also excluded). Well, then it easy Gefühlsanwandlungen ne and coarse disappointment (the man has given the feeling of being checked).
rumgemeckert much about him. Well, her for a conversation weeks later reconciliation.
bad mistakes.
My "oldest" friend was there so terrified of which he put the friendship on hold.
now I can understand him. I got a pretty heartless story started with a man who appreciates me not enough, still had the IQ, which is owed to me. Sounds bad, but Sun
So So I was for weeks without my "oldest" friend.
moment, our contact is sporadic. We have a really heated conversation after I had with him about where I am right, right to be "drop me" excited and I have inserted a wiedermal weeks on break, no theme simple.
But as before, it is not between us.
After I worked through the holidays and working from an almost cancellation of pages from my boss to an almost cancellation of my page is still there, I am really frustrated every day.
I'm tired because of the under-paid job where you constantly needs to be afraid that a theft and other SChwachfug be subject.
At the beginning my boss has pretty fought for me. However, it has the real perpetrators of the crimes alleged against me, never spoken a word about what I can not accept. At first, I really would have thought we could build a kind of friendship. But Nope.
So, now I'll hang here also. Alone, lonely, but really in a nice apartment.
I have now my bed and everything looks really chic. Too bad that I can show it to anyone.
between, I am again trying to love. If, however, failed miserably.
I wonder if I still am able to love or me Falling in love.
to my psychologist, I go by the way no more. She told me simply can not help.
I think I'll stay in bed today.